I just want to shout out.

I'M SO IN A BAD MOOD!

WOOTS!
Today is Cindy's birthday!
HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY CINDY!
Hope you've enjoy your day with us today.

Went to Bugis with jie hui and friends after passing up EES project.
Saw Adriano ( CCS ) working.. If i didn't spell his name wrongly.
Cindy's favorite star.
She was damn happy as she get to take photo with him.
Getting HIGH and everything.
Went to some restaurant near the place he work to eat.
There were this promotion saying that birthday people get to drink one giant cup of MILK TEA!
Wondering how big can it get?

Today training was cancel.
I was chosen to go K.L for friendly match.
THAT was the happy part.

Some how, SHE suddenly went all EMO the whole time.
WHICH cause everyone thought i told her something.
I got no idea what happen.
She went cry and not explaining things properly.
Causing misunderstand PLUS making me feel like crying too.

Basketball Buddy came and talk to me.
Obviously she knew something happen.
ALSO i can't hide anything from her.
It just happen in front of her.
How would she not know anything that happen.

Funny thing is, while she was emo the whole time,
After buddy talk to her.
She become all cheerful like nothing happen..
That's a good thing right?

No idea what can i say...

Man, yesterday made me feel so relax going out with them.
April and maria. Just seems so long that we haven't hang out.
Its like SUPER long... !! haha..

went to borders to look out some books.
We were so tempted to buy some books.
But then, We were so broke.
So we just sit one corner and read a few page.

So we went around window shopping around far east..
OH YEAH!. then saw my classmate RAFFEE there!!
He look so adorable . HAHA..
Yups, So we went to wisma... TOP SHOP!
Okay, First of all, I don't really like shopping.
Also! I'll hardly see clothing that i like.
So i tried out this two tops....

I just came back from training and Adidas sales!
I love Adidas! So happy!!!
But then, mum and dad doesn't seems to be very happy.
Even though i told them that its having sales and cheap.

Guess they didn't know how ex can Sports wear be. :(

Anyway, put that aside. I shall show you what did i get!!! :D

I'm officially saying that I'm not going to be with her.
I can't imagine me going with her.
And i think I'm not going to be one.

But that doesn't mean I'll just go accept any guys.
Maybe the answer to me was i just don't want get into relationship for now?
Or just that there isn't any guy for me.

Moral of everything.
I'm sorry, i can't be with you.
I only can treat you as my friend.
Sorry.

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Anyway, Happy Birthday To Swan!
Yesterday may be a sorrow for you.
Today you have lots of fun around.
Kisses from someone,
Love from her.

Don't think too much, We're always there for you.

CE!!! BOOM!!!!!!!!

Am i really starting to give up hope on guys already?
I don't seems much interest when i see handsome guys.
Or can i say, i didn't bother about looking at guys anymore?

If i go with her, i somehow have full of confidence that we'll last quite some time.
But when i think of me going with some guys, I'm so lacking of confidence with them.
Am i thinking too much?

If i go with her, after we broke up.
Can i still turn back of being straight?
I don't want to do things that i am going to regret.
I don't want end up crying in one corner looking depress.

Sometimes, her face will pop in my mind.
Thinking how she smiles.
Flash back few days ago about she taking my bag.
Her looks was so happy.

They encourage her to cut how her hair looks like when she's younger.
In my heart. I discourage her doing that.
It doesn't fits her at all.

I'm stressing myself up.
I'm picking back up my bad habits.
Doing things that is not necessary.

I love her? or just a friend ? -y.r

When i say its time to love, I didn't meant to be lesbian.
Comes to the surprise, and FIRST TIME OUT OF MY 16 YEARS!!!
a GIRL like me!!!

Shocking? I'm shock for myself too.
Though i still prefer guys..
I've never thought of becoming one at all!
Not in my life.

Most stressful time in my life!
AS IN RELATIONSHIP.
Can't imagine i become one at all!

To be or not to be...

Three training in a week.
Does that sound a lot for you?
Two days on balls, One day in gym.

Guess coach really want to push us up.
But, i don't have that much confident if i can do it or not.
Competition coming in TWO MONTHS TIME!
No idea who play which position.
Or either who will be the main or the bench warmer.
Just have to do our best i guess.

Been home late this few times.
Mother complain and now telling me that she's going to see my teacher this week.
She doesn't even understand what am i doing in school.
I admit. I can go home after school. But i don't want too.
I don't talk to my parents at home. I can't use phone much.
But i really need to talk to someone when i am having trouble.
Who will be there?

I don't speak out what i wanted to say each time.
Each time i counter back, I'll get more.
Then more misunderstanding happens.
And things might get worst each time.

When will they fully trust me that i won't do silly stuff.
I know my limits. I'll be home before 10. That's for sure.
But somehow, because of my sisters, I'm unable to get things this way.
Things isn't easy to handle now. At times, just feel like crying.
But i just have to hold on in my heart i guess.. :)

Came back home late due to training and dinner with basketball mates.
Training was fun. Getting to closer to ' juniors ' .
Hope there won't be any spoiler.

Things happen around.
Not sure weather to be happy about it or sad.
Feel kinda lost.
Or maybe i think too much.

Don't get high hopes if you don't intend to give them hope.
So that the disappointment will reduce to the least.
I assume that he gave his feelings already..
Kinda happy for him not to waste any more time on me.
Thank you for everything.. =)
Guess you were a good friend of mine for the time being.

Love or not, I don't care much now..

OKAY!

New blog means new life to share with.

Mainly i've been busy with my friends and myself.
Was kinda a caught up with some stuff and i'm confusing myself.
I've got no idea what people think of me. BUT!!!!!! Hope its not something bad.

Trying to cope myself with basketball and my friends.
New blog skin. But its not what i wanted. Trying to design one myself.
Like what they said, don't let it go a waste for what you've learn. =D

Kellie, 16.
6^th December.

For me to smile to. For Someone to smile for me.

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